Tuesday, August 25, 2009

1 year doctor's visit - hold, make that 13 months

Since we were traveling we didn't make it for Lilli's 12 months doctor's appointment. Because she seemed healthy I didn't really care to wait. Today I finally went to see a new doctor. I liked my old doctor, but didn't really have the idea that he asked a lot of questions and took a lot of time to spend with us.

The new doctor is fantastic. I really like him. He took a lot of time to spend with us. He measured and weighed Lilli himself. She weighs 23 pounds (10.5 kilograms) now and is 83 cms long. She actually grew out of the curve. She is taller than the 100th percentile of all other children. I guess she will be a basketball player...

She signs "All done", "More", "tired", "Sleep", "down", "eat", "milk", "diaper change", etc. It is amazing how she is able to communicate with us. And fascinating to see every day.

I also told the doctor that we were looking to adopt again. He hears of babies that are given up for adoption occasionally. I told him to call me... The only problem is going to be the legal side. Would be very complicated.

In the meantime we will try it the good old way. We practise a lot... We have also discussed a potential donor egg cycle. I will have to go to the "clinic that can do miracles" here to see what the doctors say.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Back in Caracistan!

I am sorry I haven't updated before, but I just got back from Europe last Saturday. Thank you all for your condolences and prayers. I have to say that they really helped a lot and often I just felt carried by you all.

Hubby's grandfather died as well. He had to go to the States and took the laptop. I felt lost without connection to the internet and was very sorry Lilli and I couldn't attend the funeral.

It was a very difficult, but also very rewarding trip back. Before the funeral I got to say my private goodbye to my dad. He was laying in his coffin all cold, but he looked so peaceful. When I touched him I realized that we were burying his body, but that his soul was gone to another place. The tears come and go, but mostly I am o.k. Having my own family helps a lot. I am so glad that my dad got to experience being a grandfather and that he had a chance to meet Lilli.

For the funeral I met a lot of relatives that I hadn't seen in many years. The weeks after that we did a lot of things as a family, a thing we weren't able to do in the last couple of years.

Lilli turned one while we were there. She started walking the day we were leaving and hasn't stopped since. She is all over the place. Fortunately my mom was able to celebrate the first birthday party with us. We also invited some neighbors and family and friends. It turned out to be a great party. Lilli enjoyed all the attention she got and of course all the presents.

She is giving real hugs now and real kisses. She says when she doesn't want to be put on the floor. She has a huge vocabularly for a one-year-old. I made a list and it had more than 20 words on it. Since she has learned even more. The newest being: "Bien!" when asked "Como estas?" Our nanny taught her that. I am amazed daily by the amount of interaction I can have with this little person now.

The flight back was not so much fun. We used miles to upgrade to Business. But traveling by yourself with a mobile one-year-old is not such a fun experience when there is a 10 hour flight ahead of you. I felt really bad when she screamed and didn't let her scream for long. She noticed that and slept only 45 minutes during the whole flight. I was defeated after 8,5 hours when the stewardess took her finally away for a while. So Lilli got to see the cockpit and spend some time there. I was really jealous. I have never been in the cockpit and I have no pictures from her being there.

But hey, we are back and life is back to normal. I am glad we are reunited as a family. Now we see what the future holds for us.