4 dpIUI

Sorry, I haven't been blogging for a couple of days. I have started to get my usual crazy 2 WW symptoms. I am questioning with every twinge whether it has worked or not. I really didn't want to get my hopes up this time. The health insurance covers it and we have maxed out our deductible for this year. So we decided on this IUI cycle. But now we have to wait for the outcome until we can go ahead with the adoption process. And that sucks. I'd rather go ahead as I don't really expect this IUI to end up in a pregnancy.

I have to go in my doctor's office on Friday for a blood test to figure out whether my progesterone levels might be too low. I guess it still will be to early for an HCG test. But when is the day for that? Hopefully I will find out on Friday.

Last Friday one of our friends gave birth to her fourth child. She has only one tube, so they had their first child through IUI. Then she had twins via IVF two years ago. Her husband had to go to Iraq for a year and when he came home for a short break in March, she got pregnant naturally. She is already 40. They didn't expect this at all to happen and she was really in a shock at first. They have been married for about 12 years and have never used birth control. God really works in miraculous ways.

Another common friend called me on Sunday to ask whether I had a hospital number for our friend. We chatted a while and then she went on about how she delivered her baby. I know that she had a miscarriage at 12 weeks and they had some difficulties to get pregnant. But she freaking has a baby. And she just continued about births and stuff.

I was really shocked about her insensitivity as it was not the first time she did something like that to me. Doesn't she realize that I might never experience a baby moving and growing inside me and to give birth to a baby myself??? She knows about our troubles and our miscarriages. And then when we met a couple of months ago (about a month after my last miscarriage) she asked me at a Happy Hour: So when are you getting ready to get pregnant? I couldn't believe it. Is she missing a sensitivity gen? She has gone trough some infertility issues herself, doesn't she understand how much it hurts to have people ask you such stupid questions?

On a different note: we finally decided to finish our basement. And this week the contractor started to work. It is always a surprise to come home and see the progress. Unfortunately the first day they had put the drywall in front of our closet with shoes and jackets. So yesterday I didn't have access to them. Fortunately they have put the drywall on the other side of the wall now. My dh had the idea to document the progress via video camera. A great idea. So yesterday I was the special reporter from our basement while a Sprite bottle served as my microphone... I love my husband because we can have so much fun together.

Last night I made an instant package of tabbouleh salad (which tasted surprisingly good!) with a ham topped with onions and cheese crusted Brussels sprout. I love to cook and try out new things... I don't like processed food, so most of our meals are home-cooked.

And I desperately feel like I need to drag my little ass back to the gym. I haven't been in weeks. I just have a hard time motivating myself once I am home in my cozy house and laying comfortably on the couch....