This morning I think I had the most embarrassing moment at my RE's office. I think I mentioned in a previous post, that everybody is just sitting there and nobody talks. Well today, that certainly changed. When I was signing in, I heard the nurse call a woman with a name that I know. I don't really know her very well, but she is one of my husband's colleagues and I have seen her on several occasions. So I decided to say "Hi" to her. The conservation went something along the lines of:
Me: "Hi, I didn't know you were coming here, too."
She: "How are things?"
At that point I thought she was referring to being at the doctor's office.
Me: "Oh the usual. Endometriosis and stuff. How about you?"
She: "Oh work has been pretty busy lately. And I had a great Thanksgiving." Then the conversation was about work and stuff until I was called in for my bloodwork.
I felt completely embarrassed and awkward that I had shared with her information about what was going on with us and she completely ignored it and went on to talk about work. I mean, she is sitting in an RE's office waiting room. It is pretty obvious that she is there for a reason. I believe she is single, so maybe she was too embarrassed to talk about it. But hey, we are probably feeling a similar kind of pain about not having kids. Why not support each other? I don't think you can have enough support while you are dealing with infertility. The support that I get from this online community has been great so far. I started to get comments and am always very excited to read them. I am so excited that there seem to be some people that actually read what I am writing. And with my new counter I can even track where they are coming from.
I am also pretty open with our struggles. I mean, I don't share it with everybody that I first meet, but most of our friends are in the loop. Why hide that we have after more than three years of marriage a desire for children?
Yesterday I sent my brother a link to read this blog. He knows about our struggles. Probably he can't really relate to it, as he doesn't seem to have the same deep desire to have children as me. But I don't mind him reading about what is going on in our life. And this way at least he can stay connected a little even if he is so far away. And I really miss him.
Update: My progesterone level was 13,9. They would rather see 15. My doctor wants me to use progesterone twice daily.
3 comments:
Go easy on her. Maybe she was just caught off guard and didn't have time to decide how much to share. And maybe she's blogging somewhere now about how she wishes she'd handled it differently.
And maybe not.
Here's a shout out to your brother: Hi, Yoka's brother!
I totally get what you mean about realizing that you might have shared too much. I often open myself up to people and usually, the response is positive. Every once in a while, though, I get that feeling of "oops." You know, she did you a favor by clearly drawing the line. Now, if you see her again, you will definitely keep it all business. Luckily, you have us to support you!
I'm in Washington, D.C. too :-) There is a whole group of DC Bloggers--we have an email group that you can sign up for though Looking for 2 Lines. I wonder if we go to the same quiet clinic :-)
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